Monday, February 23, 2009

Enough is enough.

Okay, i might be a tough guy when it comes to my view of things, but it takes a lot to get me to raise a scene in a public place where i start actually screaming at someone. Now, I must say that I am one of those people who it can be pretty damn tough being my friend if you cannot take a joke, and certainly cannot take a whole slew of jokes. I am a very rough guy, you become a new friend, i treat you like i have known you for a while, and i will get out right mean with my jokes. I am harsh. Now, if someone who just met me can take my biting sarcasm and my brutal teasing, why the fuck cant someone else who DEALS WITH THAT SHIT FROM ME TOO, not be able to stand the more insignificant stuff that someone else gives them? Its rather taxing and frustrating when i can deal the most brutal honesty ever, screaming it with fuckin passion to a person in a public place not giving a damn that there are people staring at me because they hear yelling and the person still laugh it off and talk to me but someone else who they have a crush on just make a small comment like "dont hug me, we aren't dating" and suddenly is seriously pissed off. Truthfully, me screaming "I dont wanna fucking hear you talk about wanting to get high because your life is so fucking hard, because someone you fucking dated was threatening my fucking life" should have gotten that response out of her. But no, she acts so damn concerned then lets it slide and her ex says "don't hug me, we're not dating" she is ready to fucking cry. Seriously, learn to get your god damn priorities straight!
Now, i know many people get drunk or stoned just for fun, thats fine, but those who use those vices as an escape from reality, now thats fucking rediculous. Seriously, get your fucking head screwed right and talk to me then. And tell me, is it not fair for me to tell her if she starts that shit back up again she will lose my friendship? She told me she would clean up and stopm then told me she was going to get high again. Now i dont mind she did it before, but after telling me she was going to stop and then going to do it again, now thats something i cannot stand for. Do you all feel i am unjustified? Let me know in a comment.


Sunday, February 22, 2009

days from hell lead to angry men

Alright, so the past couple of days have been rather hellish, but sadly i am here to rant mainly about the last several hours that have elapsed. Now, first off, i will say that emi suffered a concussion, after a visit to the hospital, we know it is nothing serious. Now, the hospital trip came 24 hours after the injury. First point of rant, the damn hospital.
Ok, so getting into the ER wasnt so bad, it went rather smoothly and we get back in a timely manner. But from there, it all went down hill. First thing that happens, we learn the doctor didnt read the fucking chart all the way and was going to administer a narcotic to take care of the pain. For those who dont know, emi is pregnant, and for those who also dont know, narcotics can be HARMFUL to a child. He almost fucked up big time and almost hurt my son. Then they put her on an IV, no big deal right? Almost 45 minutes after the IV drip was done, someone came in to take the damn line out. For almost 2 hours no one came to check on her, and there were several things that were not done properly. After waiting in the hospital for nearly 3 1/2 hours, she is released with good test results, which is good, but if things were done in a more orderly manner, the trip could have been shorter.
Now, roll back the clock abour 24 hours. The moment she hit her head. About twenty minutes later i get a phone call from a friend, while i am tending to a now unconscious emi, asking me if she can talk to emi because she thinks she is having a miscarriage. I tell her she will have to wait because emi was having a seizure, which it turned out she had passed out. Her response was, "Oh, okay" and then i was able to get off the phone to tend to emi. Now, this girl knows emi, and also adores emi, but she certainly didnt seem too worried about emi in a seizure, even though it wasnt that. Then, this morning, i get a text from her all upset about some fucking boy she likes, and she doesnt seem all too concerned when i tell her emi had a concussion. Really pissed me off because we have done so much shit for this girl, and all she does is sit there and bitch about a guy she barely dated. And then, when i texted her after getting out of the hospital, she tells me that she is with another guy already.
I cannot understand why the fuck someone would go and do something they know that is causing them actual pain. She told me she knew her coping methods made her life a living hell, but she still fucking does it. Why do people do that? Why do people go and hurt themselves like that? Seriously!
One last tid bit, then i am done with this, why do i have so many fucking friends who dont seem to give a rats ass about what the fuck is wrong with me when i sit there and fucking risk my life or sanity for most of them? Why is it i will sit there, and despite the fact they have fucked me over time and time again, help them and all they do is act like they dont fucking care abou my problems when i need help. No, i dont expect fair treatment in return, but it is rather rediculous when someone says they are your friend and you sit there and go through hell for them, and they dont give a rats ass about your feelings. That REALLY burns my ass, and i cannot stand it!

Well, enough ranting, its been a long couple days, i need to eat and rest. Peace out everyone


Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Where is the love?

So, i have realized it has been a while since i have posted on here, and after an incident today, i feel the need to make a post.
Let me paint a picture for ya, its 8:30 pm, its dark, and your friend just left your house to go home. Your friend happens to be wheel chair bound but is very independent and mobile. about half and hour later, you get a text. He is stuck in a ditch.
Well, coincidently, on valentines day, my buddy Jeremy (Germany) has swung by the house to hang out with emi and i a little longer. He was content with wheeling himself home from the house and took a route that had far fewer hills that oakbrook drive. FOr those who may not know where that is, or even live here, it is VERY hilly. At 9 pm i get a text saying he is stuck and that he needs help. Emi and i rush to him. When we get there i park in someones driveway and help him into the car. We give him a lift t he rest of the way home. On the way to his house we learn that he was going along and a car came around a blind turn. He had mere seconds to make a decision and his decision was to turn into a ditch to avoid being hit by a car. The drive of the car never noticed him. It was two people who were walking down the road who saw him and helped him out of the ditch. Now, he also informed us that several cars drove by. Here is where the title comes in, this ditch wasnt so low that you couldnt see him from the road, and he isnt exactly invisible but the ditch is noticibly steep, and obviously someone in a wheel chair would have trouble wheeling out. Why is it that several cars passed and didnt even consider stopping to help this poor man out of a ditch? why is it two people who were walking notice he was in the ditch and help him out? It makes me cringe to know that people now a days are so insensitive and so morally corrupt that no one in a car stopped to help him. I also feel slight disdain towards the driver who run him off the road. Even though he is in a wheel chair, he should have been clearly visible to him, and even after he went off the road, the truck just kept on going. What is this world coming to that people leave a man in a wheel chair in a ditch?
You know what people, i have a challenge for you, lets make this world a better place and HELP those who need HELP! if you see someone in a wheel chair, ask them if you can help them. If yo usee someone who has their hands full and look like they cant take much more, ask if you can help. Dont be abrasive about it, certainly be polite, but help those around you. Even something as small as opening a door for someone, or even smile at someone who looks depressed can go a very long way. So please, think about what could be going on in that persons mind and do something nice for other people.


Just use this post as my first little post to give you insight into what you are going to see on here. I tend to be an angry man with a lot of complaints, so you will see MY view on certain topics and they will more than likely take a very angry spin. Ill even try to provide and idea of a solution to the problem, if it is deemed necessary. So, if you are faint hearted, or easily offended, i suggest you look away now, because this is the only post that wont be a rant of some sort!